MPC is playing Shurangama Mantra in the background.
It’s been a long time since I blogged, and also, write in my diary. Sorta lost contact since my night shift 2 months ago. It’s all downhill from there in my thought & writing process. Lol. Amazing what working life can do to me.
Anyhow, it came to me that events will determine how a particular person react. Also, pre-determined habitual acts will shape the thoughts of oneself today and it goes on. It is sort of like dependent-arising. With the cause in the past comes the action in the present and further chain of reaction in the future.
I guess the only way to tackle it is to change the present and hope for the best in near future (I said in near future as it may not appear in an instant).
So I guess for the remaining month, I’ll stare for as long as I have to. Lol. I wonder if anyone actually reads what I type. I’m not anonymous (at all), but I hope that no one will be stalking (not that it matters). Just that, if I wanted to be safe I would have password protect and all that stuff. If it really mattered. Lol.
That’s what happens when work overcomes reality. You start to get paranoid at times. Security. That’s my job scope. But yet, it amuses me when humans are particularly good at one and one thing only, being stupid.
Look at the recent rally. It never ceases to amuse me that there are such ignorant people out there (I Was following life feeds from Twitter in regards to the rally cos I am stuck at home anyway). Then the country also ran by political monkeys. Quite sad.
Don’t get me wrong. I love Malaysia. I just hate the way people run the country.
I have yet to pick up my old hobby again: Cards and Rubiks. Though I seem to be interested in memorising the keypress for piano. The wedding tone. =D Lol thanks to smrr00. Man her plays are awesome. She plays from what she hears, initially, for the videos she normally release. If you haven’t visit her Youtube channel, be sure to check it out. Regardless if you’re a Kpop fan or not. Link: http://www.youtube.com/user/smrr00
So, I should sleep. Enjoy the last days of potential limitless joy (if only) as well as appreciate the fact that I am not the last to know =) Man I’m getting good at appreciating things already. Lol. Only the acceptance part may need some reworking.
I also realise that no matter how low my self-esteem can go, I am still way more awesome than most people =D True story.
Cheers. God I miss NZ weather and the fresh air. Well, what to do, I’m in the middle of concrete jungle.
Good night. Annyeonghijumuseyo yeorobun! Oyasuminasai minna!
With love,
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