Archive for November, 2009

Find peace within chaos

November 30, 2009

I’m lost. Again. COD4 non stop. Delay sleep. Work not sure of what to do.

It’s like having a peaceful state of mind when you’re in a chaotic state. I’m not sure it is a good thing or a bad thing.

I’ll find out soon enough I guess.

I guess there’s only one medium that I can turn to when all hope is lost.



What do you call that, a brain surge?

November 22, 2009

I’d been getting that a lot lately. Let me explain: Your brain feels contracted. Bloods flowing at every veins you can possibly imagine (or feel) in your head. There’s a slight cramp inside, like yelling to you it hurts a bit, but it’s fun. Give me more.  A brain-gasm. Makes you think faster (albeit inaccurate), you feel your heartbeat at your head.

No, that’s not migraine.

A few days ago, I was screwed over with when my friend forgot to fetch me to university (I don’t blame him, really. He does as a charity) So I took a drastic step to run and walk at the same time to University, bringing down the time gap. I reached there around 10minutes later (Normally it would take at least 15~20minutes from my house). Gasping for air, I went up the stairs, dashed to the nearest water dispenser, refill my bottle, head for the lab.

Looked at the familiar faces, I scrambled for a seat. Recuperating. Blur, don’t know what’s going on. I guess the adrenaline kicked in, and I was pretty pissed. (duh) It was Matlab. For the love of God, I haven’t touch the damn thing before. Hashing algorithm. Improve it so that the avalanche effect, collision-proof, and performance reaches higher than 0.9%, while maintain every aspect.

Brain surge kicked in. Must be top in class to get extra 2 marks for coursework. (Free marks) Ave ‘got’ it first, but it doesn’t count as she used random numbers. I heave a sigh of relief, but doesn’t make it any better.

Went to toilet, seek the sleepy MC for inspiration. He mentioned public keys, doesn’t really help, but XOR did (He mentioned for the other coursework). Hand did the typing, banging here and there, lady luck favors me.

Bitshift and Bitxor did the trick. I broke the threshold. 0.96% constant. Everyone went OMFGWTFBBQSAUSE. Still having brain surge. Corny did something else and reached 0.94%. Must revise algorithm and improvise.

Bitshift before putting it back, prime number 3 did the trick. I hit 0.99%. Gotta explain to the class on how I did it and why.

Wrote my ID number and name in my lecturer’s notebook, where he normally scribbles a what-to-do-list or maybe sudden inspiration for his work. A diary-lookalike-exercise book.

That was the most glorious moment man.

Now Playing — SNSD – Tell Me Your Wish (Genie)

Getting the MV. Internet been fucked up lately. Guess I’m tired enough to sleep now. Probably and hopefully I can get some good rest.

Seriously, sometimes, brain surges can be awesome… but not when you’re plain lazy lol.


Project HaYui

November 17, 2009

Would you trust me if I say I saw Kim Ha Yul in campus? Hy’s doppel.

How Far In The Future lol

Starstruck man.

I tell you…

November 14, 2009

… that today is the most wtf thing that happened in my life (well not entirely true, it’s just wtf). *hugs pillow lol*


Oh lord *bows*

November 14, 2009

Yes, a typical scene where angels and goddess, gods and the similar descend to Earth. It’s like bow before your creators lol you weaklings XD

Ok that was just a joke. God don’t punish me pls?

edit:Oshin <3❤ Oshin. Hahahah. =P I’m Bunny-chan in game (Call of Duty 4).

Kaiser is so gonna kill me. Oh ya did I tell you all I’m one of the Game Administrators for Serverpark? =P Kaiser is my boss. -__- So yea lolx

p/s — In case you don’t know which pro server is that, it’s one of BVPN hosted servers. Click here.

The light showed me the way. Aaaaaaaaveeeeee maaaariiiiiiiaaaaaaa~

Well that’s what you will get when your supervisor calls you like 1am and talked to you about 30mins, first complaining about the crappy work (it was expected) you gave him, and then elaborating about what you have to do. So it’s like, a big OHHH.

Finally. I’m at the verge of turning crazy, seriously (that was before the call). Now I was like, ok… now I gotta do this this this this that that that that.

At least I know what to do now. Yeshhh.

Well it’s really an honor to work with you sir.

So from now on 90% FYP 5% sports 5% leisure (COD4). GG.

Oh ya I went to gym at night. Less ppl. Yay. Less n1gg@$ hogging the place too. Now damn pain. Legs was like so tofu ady when I only did 3 reps for 12.5kgs squats. Meh. >.>


What do I have in mind currently?

November 12, 2009

*stun* Why the hell suddenly my phone got appointment reminder of someone’s birthday? I checked the number’s profile and found out that I didn’t key in the birthday there. Looked in My Documents for the Timepassages report in case I did it for that person before back then, but nothing. Then I checked my calendar again, it is tomorrow. o-O Checked Facebook, apparently no date on that person’s birthday. Like Wth srsly out of the blue scary @@ But I will wish that person later la.

I was looking for, intuition… or rather the path of enlightenment for my FYP, so I’d decided to refer to the UK slides for G53IDS, but coincidently I went into my pendrive backup folder, and saw the awesome cover of my personal report for G52GRP. Decided to read it. After reading the whole thing, I was like, did I really typed that? Stress works wonders sometimes. Same goes to the group report, I can’t believe my own eyes we did that. It’s like WOAH. We DID IT.

Then Ms Sri (ex lecturer, goddess level) dropped a hint saying that the marking is based on CONTRIBUTIONS OMFGWTFBBQSAUSE. Serious tone. It’s based on ‘how genuine your idea is, your contribution, how much it is’. DIE LO. So hard.

I was walking back to my house after I bought burger because I foresee myself crying in hunger around 12~1am later. Then I realised Abeer’s house is like having a bachelor party or some shit. Guitar, beer drinking session perhaps. Then I realised the fortified steel on ALL of the windows along the whole row of terrace houses. The thought that we are confined to our spaces doing work and study just kills me. It’s like we’re all trapped in a jail or some sort. No freedom at all. Of course, it’s there for our security, but what gives? Depressing look.

Didn’t go to watch 2012 with my coursemates as I foresee myself not enjoying the moment. Then again, I have no one appropriate to go out with. Lol.

Also a random rant on how sunny and nice weather it can be like around 2pm of the day, and around 4:30pm it started pouring like cleansing theraphy God gave to mankind and then stopped raining at 5pm, making me and my housemate unable to go to swim. Actually can la, but after rain, he complained that the water will be so damn cold, which is true. I sneezed like a wild goose on a flu back then when I jumped into water at night. The wind isn’t helping back then.

Oh ya did I mention back then the spider invasion near the swimming pool after the rain back then? We were swimming halfway (at least I was, erm trying to) saw tiny spiders crawling all over the place and we were like WTF. Really. Never see it happen before. Everyone there was shocked. Lol. Not tarantulas, those smaller version, but not house spiders. As big as a King Ant, 20cent. Yeah that would be appropriate.

Despite the fact that I’m trying to cut down on fats, I’m still hungry at night. Hence, I’m gonna devour my burger now. I’ll just have to work harder. I rephrase, HARDER.

Hopefully I still stay sane until I graduate.


*rubs eyes*

November 8, 2009

Well, it’s been an unproductive day, besides getting my ranking up from 8 to 5 in Serverpark.

This is me. =3 Haha.

So, guess what made me have the uumph to push forward 😀

Well… when your supervisor comments on your Facebook, you’re bound to do your work… right?

Work work!



November 4, 2009

This is to inform you that ********* ********** has transferred RMxxx.00
to your Maybank account for 😛 on 11/04/09 16:55:56 via

Please check your account balance.

This is a system generated email. Please do not reply to it.

Ah… first time. Notice the 😛 there? Yes, it is what a sender typed.

Man… feels good =D

Rest In Peace Kind Soul

November 4, 2009

Uncle, rest in peace. May the angels guide you throughout your path to heaven.

He is a good man. I knew him through a milk ordering service, and he had been sending me goat’s milk for several years (4 years approx). Very kind man. Offers me titbits, food, and random stuffs sometimes, and everytime he arrives in front of my mouse with the distinctive motorcycle exhaust sound and honing to let me know he is here. I will always raise my voice to call him “Hey Uncleeeeeeee” without fail. He is a part of the staff where my mum is working, in a charitable foundation for children with special needs.

His death was caused by lung failure, or something related to the lungs. I was shocked to know when his condition worsened for the past week. Been planning to go back to visit him, but my work tied me down. Now he have departed from this world.

In memory of a kind man. You will be forever missed.

— eXPeri3nc3.

Must resist to-

November 3, 2009

post here.

Nevermind. =D

My 3rd tab is currently viewing a friend’s picture. Thanks to the awesomeness of it I just have to look at it for a few seconds then I concentrate on what I want to do. It makes me find back my focus (at least for a while) before it wander off again. Grinning from ear to ear, that nonchalant bright smile. Kuaci sized face. The standard flat hair, don’t really know how to describe it.

The exact same hairstyle like one of the seller in Auntie’s in the evening.

Pinafores FTW.

I never knew how one person can have a damn scary evil solemn grudged face and in an instant change into a cute harmless joy-bringing face.

o_O Yes.

Ok time to churn the papers and make the impossible to happen, finish G53DBS. Tonight.