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The Revival

April 11, 2011

I chose “The Revival” as this post’s title mainly for a few reasons *that suddenly crossed my mind out of the blue*:

  1. It’s been donkey years since I last blogged,
  2. Although I doubt I have readers for my personal rant, I guess it’s a good practice to just blog,
  3. My sleeping time is officially screwed (more on that later), and this feels like University times
  4. I am trying to revive a lot of stuff (from the past in a good manner)

First of all, to my readers out there (if any), I humbly apologise for this delayed post. Overdue like months. Lol. Mainly was because I am either busy, working, sleeping, cybercafe-ing (or in other words DotA-ing), or whatever you can think of (e.g. emo). I used to blog waaaaay more, guess that working life is indeed a bit taxing at times (lol auditors are worse off).



Nyaaaa – J-Pop Rules!!

June 25, 2009

– Berryz Koubou


Tsunku really know how to call them eh?
I started of as a C-ute fan… and then i found Berryz’s “Dakishimete Dakishimete” .now, since they are both sister groups from the H!P Kids group… it’s not so bad, eh?….
Oh man.. what’d i do to go to a joint concert between Morning Musume, C-ute and Berryz koubou…! @-@ :ATSUI ATSUI!!!!!:

Greetings from the land of Milk and Sheep

June 1, 2009

Hoy there!! its been a long time since i’ve posted ‘ere! Hoho, the land is fresh, the air is  friggin’ cold… and I am loving this life. The scope for IT and Comp. Sci. Grads are great here. You have to look carefully at where you want to go and what type of criteria you fit. and are good sites to look at. look for jobs that are suitable and don’t be shy to call that number! This advice applies for Australia too! There are tonnes of websites that offer various job options but do try first!

Maybe I should post a collection of the links that i have amassed over the years…

till then, Sayonara!

Rule [2.1]

June 17, 2008

“Rule Breaker – I suck”


12:30 AM… probably one of my early times of blogging.

Now Playing — Andre Rieu & The Johann Strauss Orchestra – Emperor’s Waltz

Rawrrrr spaming in SC as usual… regardless of date.

Torrented quite a few vids… Quite useful, but time consuming, need to practice. I like Witness by Lee Asher! Damn cool. Lol.

Rubik’s… getting faster at the F2L… but still having problems at slotting them in = =||| But I have a general grasp of it already. Hoping to get faster… but my cube is getting dirty and worn out. =\

I want those speedcubing special DIY cubes man… *drool* lol.

But I still have to memorise those OLLs and PLLs… WTF man. Wait, first I need to get my notation straight. = =


Ok this morning woke up, mum told me eh 11 ady go out. Ok Time for a haircut and take photograph for my L license. Then switched on the laptop (it’s already on so just move the mouse XD) and see bluescreen = =||| Wow…

Restarted and blasted Croatian Rhapsody. Then took my bath, ate and went out.

Brought my rubik’s too XD

So I went to a new shop for haircut, after that quite ok la my hair now shorter LOL (well duh) and it doesn’t really look nice if I didn’t comb it. =\ Ah well.

Yes I was playing rubik’s while she’s cutting my hair. Then after I solve ady I lazy so I kept the cube XD

The other shampoo girls were watching some real life voodoo thingy on TV. Quite scary from the reflection of the mirror to the TV Screen.

So left the place and headed for lunch in my usual shop ‘Lam Kee’. I always go there and eat and walk to Pusat Tuisyen Cheng that time (yes it’s the same Cheng for English and mandarin lol). It’s like my second food home ady. Lol back then lah.

So ate there, and went to Peking Optical Shop and chatted with Chun Kit’s parents. Haha. Talked a lot there, for my mum lah, I spoke quite a few words too lah.

Playing rubik’s all that while, saw Chun Kit’s sister with her dog… I dunno how you spell ‘shit tzu’ lol. Anyway I’m glad to know I’m not the only one that sleeps late wake up late and eat lunch straight away after I wake up XD

Then… auntie sent us back… thanks auntie.

I went into my room, and forgot what I did… = =

Then evening nothing much also ‘chopping then no inspiration and it sucks. = =

I found some tuts, but phailed miserably. Cannot get it.

Ah well…

I don’t even have an idea for the layout. = = God forbid, I really suck in AP compared to last time.


Mana artistic part of me now? Gone with the wind ah?

Keong called me this evening… and made me curse in cantonese for 45 minutes. = =||| Sure happens. God knows why he received a ‘cardboard’ (actually it’s a Post Office receipt = =|||) and told me he doesn’t know what the hell is that and the other Ipoh langs from NS got it too.

So he called me up to ask me whether I receive such stuffs or not, I checked the mailbox on the box and I can only see my dad’s name on it so it’s a no.

Then I say eh why you and them kena one… and this is the comeback reply:

“We fai chai yat gor le mah… you sei tiu chai… ketua wor, gang hai umm sai ge lah”

I lol-ed wtf.

Was looking at CC’s thread – “How do you make love” and I was laughing my ass off. Lol. WTF. = =

“Blame Malaysia for not having sex education” — hell yeah man. Lol.

Yes… = = Ixora connection sucks. Woot. But it’s free wth wth wth wth.

Anna went aiyerrrrrr lol. Yes I know notts don’t have that = = damn bloody Pioneer and ExBB… bastards. Grr.

Ah well I couldn’t care less anyway I would camp in Tiscra or somewhere in the Orange Building for wifi back then =w

Tired… and yes I’m sick… in either way.

Rubik’s… ahhhh

So at night dinner… and then… err took the photos… aiyerrr my eyes so small = = yes I slept late. Didn’t sleep well.

I spit on my back palm wtf this morning, what kind of weird dream is that. = =|||

Not really spit la I’m just letting the saliva out when I’m 1/4 awake XDD


Project ‘ey’ halted temporarily… can be continued, screw the top.

I dunno la….

By the rate of ‘Tongue Tied’ being played by my winamp… if I really listen to it I can bloody memorise the lyrics. = =

Hmm I should write a list of songs for different emotions rawrrr

“Just call my name and I’ll be there…”

Now Playing — Westlife – I’ll Be There

No dota for today too.

Second day. OMG.



Short hair is short.

I shall attempt on ASCII art soon LOL *wahahhaha*

= =

Random rant — I’m not that stupid not to know that fapping requires alt + tab and distraction lol.

Woooooot is it what I think it is?


Now Playing — Hirano Aya & Katou Emiri & Fukuhara Kaori & Endou Aya – Valentine Kiss

“Astawa dokuede da special day~”

Lol… yeah valentine’s day is special. I think.

“Valentine Day Kisssssssssssss” *swings head from left to right back and forth*


Hmm *regret*




“dango dango dango dango dango dango dango dango daikazuku~”

Lalalalalala =P

Ah well. Guess that ends it. Another boring day pt 2.


Piano… T_T

“I am a dreamer…” — Card Captor Sakura – Platinum

Something’s Are Better Left Unsaid

June 12, 2008

Now Playing — BoA – Waiting

The Forbidden Kingdom is completing in a few minutes time. KungFu Panda… not bad. I like the storyline.

Taylor Swift… nice voice.

Been not able to login to GArena… I think it’s my IP problem. What the hell, 60.54 is giving problems accessing GArena lah now?

Or it’s just me… I don’t know.

Maybe it’s me.

Been trying to be out of the ordinary, but the fact is I’m no more than an ordinary person.

Toilet seems to be the most inspirational place one could be. I tend to concur now. Been having weird thoughts in toilet which are totally awesome.

Words can’t describe how I feel now, if you could, I will marry you straight away if you’re a girl, and if you’re a guy, I’m gonna turn gay for you.

At least I found something out of nothing… and it’s not something for nothing… I do gain a lot from this.

Just that been wondering would it be better if it didn’t happened.

Starting to disrespect with my own decisions that’s it.

Been doubting myself.

The Forbidden Kingdom completed. Ok, time to restart router and see if I still have problems with GArena…

“… in the end… it doesn’t even matter~”

AC. *tomg ends*

Rule [2]

June 10, 2008

Scrap Post 7:16 PM 6/9/2008

Now Playing — Hirano Aya – God Knows

Just finished watching Please Teach Me English (Korean Movie). Quite funny. “watashi…” *hums*

That day I watched “Art Of Seduction”… players movie. Lol. That’s a good one right there. Quite a number of catchy phrases too. A bit unrealistic, due to the fact that I’m not there yet, so I fail to believe that it will happen… lol.

Internet down… while I’m downloading gunbound around 69%… >”< grr

If I could simulate my current heartbeat… it would be the following:

*saves printscreen*

Yes… it’s just the same as the graph.

Now Playing — F/SN OST – Anata ga Ita Mori (TV Size)

Nice song… Now I understand why Caleb likes this song so much that he could loop this song for the whole night. Very meaningful lyrics.

Saber… T_T My ‘Saber’…

Downloading KungFu panda… damn line. I’m gonna call TM tonight.

Today… first time… never GG-ed yet.

Sudden change of timetable… due to the fact that internet has been failing me…

… and someone is stalking me.

*Va len tine dayyyyyy kissssss uuuu* XD

Raki Suta desu~~~~

If I have a revolver with me now I’ll definitely gun down not Kagami but of course Konata grrrrrr… lol.

Tomorrow’s test… I’ll prepare everything by tonight.

It’s been gloomy today.

I’d been hugging my bolster for as long as I can remember.

God… bread crumps with ants. BRB.

AC. 7:26 PM 6/9/2008


Rule number 2

Trust your instincts, not your feelings.

Lesson learned? Ok.

3 minutes difference… and between Triple Scorpio and not. Lol.

Downloading KungFu panda… hopefully can finish by tomorrow. Played dota 1 match due to the rapidshare waiting time… got axe and swapped with furion, and lost. Can win one, those idiots just died suddenly and lost the whole game = =.

Saw lilgirl online in Skype. I went o_O and said hi. Then after quite sometime only got reply, apparently the connection in that cc sucks. = =

Anna was like… lol. Chilling out… yeah you better do so. Lol.

hiatus = a break.

Was slightly upset at times… esp when I can’t understand Heise method. = =|||

I think I better off now. Read Kurikulum Pendidikan Pemandu (KPP) = = Never even touched that.

Alright, wish me luck for undang tomorrow. Jya~neh.

Signing off,


Rule [1]

June 9, 2008

Always do not take things for granted.

Lesson learned? Good.

I woke up this morning… mum dragged me out of bed. Me, the blur one when I wake up, hesitated and wanted more sleep as I slept at 6 AM in the morning? Lol. Then I walked to my laptop, switched it on, and looked at my handset. Checked the time, 7 something in the morning… ok. Then noticed a small envelope logo beside the time… oh so I went let’s check it out.

Read, and smiled.

Then, brushed up, this and that, then ate dumpling for lunch. God forbid, I don’t even know that it’s dumpling festival. = = Father’s day is coming soon, and I still owe mum a present. = =|||

Now I really need to go Ipoh to get something… for mum and dad plus myself (shirts?) then I realised that I woke up too late during Saturday morning (yesterday, err I mean 2 days before *points to time*) so it got cancelled.

TM called me again while I’m playing dota… = =||| and I say that I’m facing major timeout, well, I am. Fark man, the line is so damn smooth at times, and it’s rough as hell. Tell me about mother nature… it’s exactly the same thing.

When else fails… meebo is the way to go. Helped Susan with her stuffs… payback for her lor, she helped me quite a bit that time… =)

So this evening watched TV, planning to save some money using my own acc… XD *lolz* then watched the Taiwanese TV show and laughed my ass off… seriously, only Taiwanese people have the guts to do all kinds of shit. Lol. Hillarious indeed. Then, I forgot to add that yesterday I was watching TV2, a Taiwanese show also = = and a magician performed… he’s quite a bigshot in Taiwan apparently… nice sleights, tho I think that his showmanship is not as good as others (me criticising him? lol who am I T_T). IMHO lah, okeh?

Been to a random blog… and I’d noticed that her spiritual level is over 9000++ *don’t worry you will never know who muahahhaha, wait, if I give a hint someone here might know =W*

Then to another, and I went… omg… Lol. It never fails to amuse me… smart.

BTW, to know whether someone is a genius or not… it doesn’t take another genius to test some other geniuses to prove that the others are geniuses. Lol, get it?

I did… and I found my answer (by coincidence… lol). Repsects.

Ah yeah, I got timepassages to work… damn should have read the *.nfo file earlier… and power of intuition… lead me to the correct thread ^^

Surprisingly I might / might not be Triple Scorpio… as ya know birth cert’s timing is off. You will never know. i just found out that my mum gave me the wrong info *facepalm* and I created my own profile again. *thansks Cubbie for this wonderful piece of software* and I looked at the top right… Sagittarius Rising… no longer Scorpio Rising… T_T well as I said, both also the damn “bowl” lol. = =||| So basically it doesn’t differ much, just that I feel that being Triple Scorpio is better… more powderful lol.

Matched mine with Anna… and I was lol-ing all the way. It’s quite true, both of our egos… a bit too high dontcha think? =P

But don’t worry, you’re attractive enough for me to lower down mine =P


Then my internet failed me again….

L License exam on Tuesday… tomorrow (today) wake up and study… huhuhu… <- I know I sounded like a retard. = =

God knows why humans are created in such a way that we all differ so much… lol. Thank god it’s the way it is XD

*yawns* Probably the aftermath of last night’s marathon.

Tired…. eyes blinking and filled with tears after yawning. Geez.

DL-ing KungFu Panda… hopefully manage to get it done.

COABH new thread already… new version, and anderson is back. Straight away kena tiu ady. Um tiu um sang seng one that fucker. = =

Censor the profanity yourself if you cannot stand those.

I have to say… after reading, I feel better. Slightly. It gives some motivation… unlike something else which would trash me down the drain.

*looking at my rubiks cube* *thinking of*

*when can I master heise technique… T_T*

Seems easy and hard. = = Enough said.

MSN died. Skype… empty list.

GArena… error. But had quite a few fun games… but host rmk wtf… ownage medusa ^^ good combo with orge magi. Razor nice farming and denying… but in the end kena tapao… = = teammates left. GG.

Today used Faerie and kena trashed. GG. Why others can thrash ppl with Faerie man… I don’t get it.

I suck in dota lol.

It’s 2:28 AM 6/9/2008. I should forget it.

Well, sleep now, nites.

Alex. million miles away
*edit — Saw this in CC, nice poem silverhawk. Bloody Grand Trine owner lol. =P


IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
‘ Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!

Rudyard Kipling


June 8, 2008

This morning… I woke up at around 9 or 10 I think 9… someone called… quite noisy background sound, and I tulan… cos so damn early and I can’t hear jackshit… so I stopped the call, dropped the phone, and went to sleep. Around 10 TM called me again, and I just say oh ok ok ok bye. Then dragged myself to the laptop, played “where are you”, and went back to sleep.

Woke up around 1 something… mum chased me out of bed… ask me to have my lunch.

Then I stayed in the room… played dota, she sms-ed. Then later in the evening… watch TV lor. Was playing rubik’s cube… and suddenly I just think of…

Took my bath, and then dinner. Was watching “The Art Of Seduction”, a korean movie, quite funny lol just around 10 mins then I go out and take my dinner… it’s around 9PM. Claypot Chicken Rice… woo. Then saw… eh?! Train Man? I straight away sit down and keep laughing… cos I understand how that guy feel… and the japanese emoticons are super kawaii~ lol. It’s just funny… and the girl quite brave. Haha.

But in the end, don’t really get it… wonder why the Densha Otoko The Series was actually linked with this Densha Otoko the movie… I need some JDrama fans to clarify this for me.


Ah well.

Just after the movie finished… Kok Hoe called. I’m like eh? “Hi boss fan kao mei?” lol. Then 5 mins later come and fetch me go yumchar. = =

Went to the toilet, changed, and weeee off to mamak. First went to “tin wu” or whatever cocked-up english name they give it. Ate Bubur Caca… Lol. Then chatted till jaws drop. It’s been 2 years. Kar Mun, Jun Soon came too. Saw Kok Hoong… and lc Simon (I couldn’t give a shit anyway, don’t want to greet then fine lor), and other random ppl.

Then… supposedly went to the market for something to eat… as the shop is closing… = = so off we left to Kampar Market… and nothing left there too… all closing ady. Man, at night Kampar is really a dead town.

Now Playing — Bellefire – What Hurts The Most (lol random)

Err, went back to Bandar Baru again… = = Sorry Kar Mun… there goes your petrol… we wanted to belanja him makan for bringing us makan but he never eat or drink during the second session… = =

So went to Gurney’s Corner (roti canai sucks! Dhal too!) and ordered. Talked here and there, dota, this and that. A lot. Until I feel that I have a sorethroat. Gg.

Steph sms-ed. Was informed that someone watched the replay several times already… cannot play watch also good. =(

Then she’s leaving at 8AM tomorrow… I mean today.

Tried calling her and she thought that I play missed call. = =


So after the second session, they sent me back, it’s around 2 something ady… now it’s like 2:41 AM. = =|||

Brushed up, and blogging now.

While I’m brushing my teeth I suddenly hear the music… “He’s the reason of the teardrops on my guitar…” damn loud… it’s not really loud, but clear, as it’s at night… I’m like… ok…

How many ways to say okay? – okay, ok, okeh (lol), OK, okie, okies, okiezz, a ok, ok bitch, <insert here>

Back to topic, so I started blogging now due to request… a request which I cannot reject…

I’m particularly sober right now…

Guess that’s all. I’ll pour more somewhere.

eXP (was called as is)

*edit — I saw someone that looked like Kristy. = =

Heart… scared…

June 7, 2008

Well was chatting with Anna, and I suddenly remembered that… my exam results… oh god.

I think leaving TSF isn’t that bad afterall, I might learn to appreciate TSF once I left… I took things for granted. =((

Now Playing — Josh Groban – I’ll Be Home for Christmas

Sweet song… *wub*

Lisa is as caring as ever. =)

I wonder if anyone really bothers to read my blogposts… as most of them come for F_D, not my personal stuffs… and since I closed Googlebot spidering bloghits dropped drastically as if someone closed the pipe while the water is flowing… to me now bloghits matters nothing… only thing matters is I can convey what I wanted in freedom and it won’t be used against me.

Freedom of expression, which is what I don’t have.

Random thought — It’s a good thing if someone blushes for you.

Was spamming in SC… lol. Now waiting Cubbie for the results… nyhahaahhahha XD

God, my waist hurts… maybe the way I sit. T_T Was sitting in the living room for the whole night until I got my router issue sorted… I hope it stays the way it is now.

I want to download KungFu Panda… XD

Lilgirl didn’t online today… and she complain cannot online… well Murphy’s at action again…



After further reading, I think I’m starting to accept myself for the way I am… well feeling this way, at the very least I know it’s part of me, and it’s normal… to feel that way. I won’t change it, as it can’t be changed in the first place… and I will just let it be. After that as long as it doesn’t affect my day then I’m fine with it.

No point struggling over it. It will just waste my effort and mood.

I’ll probably add a counter in blogspot. *hint* (doink, gotcha)

I don’t feel like typing much today… been sad for the whole evening… now feeling better after that dota match… first time no one leave and a complete 5v5 game. Tho opponent left last minute when about to gg. Haha.

I still have the replay… I can back it up. Tho my mirana lousy lah, but ellokawan says my ulti time damn on time one. =D =D =D

1 more day till I quit dota… or maybe not. =(

I feel like…


*heaves a blank sigh*

I’ll walk out.


I tell you…

June 6, 2008

The Star’s horoscope is VERY ACCURATE. Tho it happened a day late, but if you minus the GMT difference from here to US… it’s accurate… very.

I was talking to Kristy for enlightenment on whether I should continue my training or not… and natakaasd even tan_pang…

But then noooo supposedly I wanted to send yesterday night itself… then I hesitated saying that I need more time thinking… Ah now think summore lah smart Alex…

I just got a PM from Lisa half and hour ago saying that they have to dismiss me due to my long period of inactivity… and everything didn’t turn out right.

“Something will end tonight…” yes it’s 1AM in the US. = =

That’s what I call accuracy.

I’d PM Lisa… and we’ll see how it goes… most probably I’ll head over to SWI or GTG or MR… join tan_pang lol.

Sigh… I really miss TSF man… even though I hate it when I made mistakes over there… they really treat you like a family, despite the fact that I’d made tons and tons of mistakes back then.

Now Playing — Bellefire – What Hurts The Most

Sad songs just have to kick in at the right moment…

Guess there’s no one to blame but myself.


Access to subforums have been revoked, and there I am a normal person again.

I hereby take this chance to thank all of those guys in TSF Team which taught me a lot while I’m at it. I really appreciate what you guys had done for me… esp tetonbob, sUBs, Deckard, Lisa, and others. Your efforts will not go unnoticed, at the very least I’ll bring them on with me as I proceed further.

I’d failed sUBs’s expectation… that’s the real sad part.

I’m ashamed of myself.